Behind Blue Eyes

I'm 18 years old, im short, sweet, cute and i love life.

Sunday, October 30, 2005

hi everyone,
I just wrote a blog a little while ago but im in the mood for writing again, i fixed it so i can recive comments from anyone.... hint hint.

Im not really to sure what to right about, I said in my last blog what i did yesterday but i guess i could tell another story about my life but the question is which one?

I could tell you about the time when i was about 6 years old and i fliped myself into the soverin hill river or the time i used to collect snails and name them all fred, those were the good days, but nahh thats not interesting.

My year 10 formal was fun, we got to get dressed up and have fun but that night rolled out into a series of dramas, it was all good till the afterparty.

The after party was at a mates house, his name is Karl his parents were away so he volunteered to have the party at his house. Anne's dad picked us all up from the formal and we went back to her house to get changed. Once we were ready we walked to Karls house which wasnt too far away, mind you on the way the boys jumped out of the trees and scared the shit out of everyone. Once we were there the party started we cracked open a few drinks turned the music on and the trampoline in the back yard was great entertainment, specially when drinking.

Then the dramas started, one girl in my group who i will leave nameless decided to be selffish and go to a different after party where the boy she liked was going to be at, at the time. We said "why dont you just stay here and have the party with us" she replied with, "well im going with or without you" and me being a care bear as my mother calls me, i went with her just to make sure she would be safe, becuase well this party was not exactly a party with fairy bread and soft drink it was drugs, alcohol, fights and sex. Now im not saying our party was all fun and games but our parties dont go to extreams.

I was lucky to get into this party becuase it was invite only, but it was ok becuase they girl who owned the house was a good friend of mine. Anyway once we were at the party my friend got absoutly smashed and she was making a fool of herself, i left the party while a few close guy friends stayed behind to make sure she was safe, when i got back to Karls, i had like 10 missed calls, i got even more worried and we went back to the house to get her, when we brought her back to karls a boy called corey stayed by her side all night saying he was the only one to help her.
They disspeard into the bedroom.
The boys told me not to go into the bed room but i didnt cared what they said, i walked in and my friend was topless and his guy was all over her, i told her to get out of the room but she wouldnt listen, my friend kat she finally got her to come out of the room and i told this corey fellow where to go, he followed me almost all the way back to annes and was callng me a slut and shit like that and we had a huge argument in the carpark of a local supermarket, I seriuosly dont care what he calls me becuase well in the end he was an asshole and i stoped my friend from getting hurt.

The next day she didnt remeber but we refreashed what had happend, she fell alseep on the floor of annes bedroom and since it was like 6am me and my friends walked to maccas for some brekkie.

As i was wrting what happend at the afterparty from my yr 10 formal, i talked to my brother, we havent been getting along he swore at me for no reason and well its gone from there, i asked him why he sent a nasty email to me, and he relplied, "Im happy to never see you again to be honest" "or any family" and i said to him, "why are you being like this?" and he replied,"cya or il delete u permantly" i cant believe it, this isnt him and it makes me so upset.

G'day G'day my fellow bloggers,
Im so exhusted right now ive had a full on past day lol i know a day and im already exhuasted. So as i speak im drinking and orange juice for a vitamin C pick me up.
Friday night i went into the city with my boy Cam, but during that time he wasnt feeling to well, even went abit pale but he felt better later on that night.
Cam's dad took me home, got home about 11.45, something like that and got to bed about 12, that will teach me for staying up late on school nights, it catches up with me.

Then last night i had a girls night with two of my besties anne and bella.
We went to an iltalian restraunt and had dinner, then went and saw that new flick, 40 year old virgin it was pretty funny, then after that we went back to my place and chucked a few dvds on and ate junk.
I fell alseep during both movies, the first movie was called, Now and Then its a pretty old movie, an oldie but a goodie and then the Princess Diaries (my friends picked that) and about 10 mins into that i was out like a light, woke up about 5.45am i was still on the couch and anne was asleep on the other one and bel had driffted to the bedroom.
I went out today with my mum and went shopping we went to HighPoint and i got a dress put on layby its very beautiful.

I so couldnt be botherd to keep blogging ay this moment so catch u laters people ciao!

Wednesday, October 26, 2005

Hey everyone,
This is my first official blogging, i never knew about this site til last night because my boyfriend started one up so i thought hmmmmm, i might give that a go.

So first il introduce my self, my name is Amanda and im 17 years old and im in yr 11 at school. I LOVE Greenday, they are awsome! and i also love going out with my friends and boyfriend.
My best friends are, Belinda ive known her like forever since about grade 4, Vanessa i met her in yr 7 she was so tiny and shy! (not anymore), Anne we became friends in yr 10 when she moved to my school, Kathlyn what can i say shes a nut but alot of fun, Ash who i met at the start of this year and Markus! Who is an absoulte sweetheart and hes avalible girls ;)
They are my closest buddies!

My boyfriend's name is Campbell aka. cam hes 18, tall, brown hair really green eyes! Not only is he a great bf but hes well....... my only bf! hes my first relationship which is kinda strange but its fun and he makes me happy.

Its kinda werid how we met, becuase when i first met him i never imagined him being my first bf.
We met at an underage dance party called Kandi, and i only went there by coincidence. Me and my friends wanted to go to Metro, but after waiting in the line for 3 count em, 3 and a half hours they turn around and said they were full. By this time im pretty grumpy, all dressed up and no where to go.
Then just about when we were about to give up there was a message going around that there was another underage on, we thought why not? i mean we had been in a line for a long time and we wanted to atleast do a little bit of dancing.
When we got there is was pretty average, but all the same we were happy to finally be in some night club even if it wasnt planned. After about 2 hours dancing with my friends i was stuffed and my shoes felt like they were sawing my feet off!
I decided to sit down and cool off abit. Just as i sat down i looked over and there was a guy sitting just across from me. Thats when he slid over and asked how i was going, i asked him if he wanted to dance we danced for a few minutes but my feet were pretty stuffed so we got a drink from the bar and he told me about a balcony up on the landing.
We went up there and had a good chat, he was easy to talk to, i found out he was from Balwyn i had no idea where the heck that was. Then some of his mates came over and they r like 'soo whos this cam ', then i realised i haddent even told him my name! and i didnt know his. After we introduced ourselves abit more it was time to go the lights came on that that was then end of Kandi.

Just as i said nice to meet you and cya later and was about to go find my friends, he asked for my number, i was abit like hmmmmm i was unsure i dont know why exactly but i thought why not he seems nice. I gave him my mobile number and got his msn and from then on we got talking over msn ever since!

After a few weeks of chatting via msn, i think it was i who said do u wanna meet up, so he came all the way down to see me, omg i was nervous, i didnt really know why i just was. But the day ran smoothly cept he was a little late. But at that time i wasnt intersted i just saw him as a nice guy.
So over then next few months i think it was we kept meeting up, going into the city having coffee and just hanging out.
Over time though i kinda got feelings for him, but then he started to go out with a girl called kayla, i will admit it i was mildy jealous specially when he told me she kissed him. But i told my self dont be stupid and get over it...... so i did.

Cam told me about there being another kandi on so i thought ohh yea it was alright last time and i asked my friends if they wanted to go. They all said yes and cam got tickets for me and my friends.

At the club i saw cam said a quick hi and went back to dancing with my friends, while dancing i saw this young guy not a whole lot taller then me but still taller and he had the whole look going for him and i dunno in a way i was like oh :o so i asked him to dance, after a while i dont know why but we ended up kissing, to me it was just a party pash.
But after the dance it was time to go home and on my way to the train station i heard two boys running up behind me, one was Jake and the other was an idiot called Todd (aka. hump boy lol).


What i did next was a mistake and i shouldnt have done it at all, i met up with jake, not only did me and my friends wait 2 hours for him but when he showed up he pretended like i wasnt even there and left after like 10 mins, i thought he was an ass.
That night i went to a sleepover with my friends and i got a phone call it was jake, saying that he was sorry about today and if i wanted to meet up again, i feel like a fool, but once again i did, and yep he like ignored me again, i felt like an idiot, i wasnt even myself around him. while talking to him on msn he was really nice and sweet then in person he was a complete ass. Once again he said do u wanna meet up with just us two so we can talk im like hmmmm, and stupidly said yes again! wats wrong with me! mean while, while this is all happening cam is telling me hes no good and that i should forget about him, but nope i didnt listen. The third time i decided he wasnt for me i sent him a txt saying i felt sick and that i couldnt come, he he he he little did he know i went a played golf with my friends.

Then the night came and Cam had gone to a party with his mates and well, lets just say he got pretty trashed, he rang me a couple of times and then talked to me on msn. On msn he let it slip to me that he liked him after much convincing by his mate tim. To tell you the truth i kinda had a feeling that he did. this made me so confused. I told Jake the next night on msn that i didnt feel the same about him and that i liked someone else, ohh gosh then he cracked the shits
saying he loved me blah blah blah blah.... what a load of bull, im not that stupid! because a few weeks later i found out he cheated of his gf with me!

Because this had all happend i felt bad and i didn't share the same feelings for cam, then oneday it clicked in my brain, "hey i do like him" So that night on msn chatting away about who knows what, i interputed him and said, "i like you" i felt so relived and happy that i told him.

So we both liked eachother, funny how things like that happen. We went out a few times and everytime i went to kiss him id chicken out so bad........ argghhh it was terrible i was like why cant i just do it!

So on August 6th i went to see a footy match cos cam is a huge bombers fan (no idea why they suck) and at half time we went for a walk. We sat down on the telestra dome steps and i said to him that i was gonna chicken out. so he leaned in and kissed me, omg i was horrible imagine 2 billion butterflys zooming around in ur stomach. But ohh wel it was our first kiss and all the same is was good. From then i guess it was just mutual and he was my bf! (yay)

It was so odd but that night at home i was so happy couldnt stop thinking about it and my friends were so excited when i told them the next day. (we r girls u cant blame us)

oh well now that you know my story about how i met cam im not sure what to write in my next blog i guess il just write about what ever is happening in my life so ciao bellas mwah!